I will love you and I love you

You know that I love you, right? Maybe you can't feel it much. But I just want to remind you. I want you to know and I want you to feel my love. I just want to make sure that you do, I hope it's obvious. I want to make sure you're okay. Let's get it on. I'm gonna tell you something. Wag masyadong kiligin. Haha. 

I want to make you happy as much as I want to. 

I'm so proud of you like I've always saying. I'm so proud because you've grown up so fine and gorgeous. I'm so proud of every track you're taking to achieve your dreams. I'm so proud with the things you do, you can do, and will be always proud with the things you will do. . I'm so proud with the achievements you've achieved, the accomplished dreams you've been tasting now. (I just keep silent on it even if I am proud)

I love your humbleness and fighting spirit. I love the genuine passion you have for your profession. So genuine. I hope I won't mess it. I hope I won't mess your outstanding image that you're building right now. Please don't be too sad, as much as I wanted, I want to be there when you're feeling sad. You're not alone, you know that.

You can count on me as usual. I am here though sometimes I am away or not by your side physically, but as much as possible I want you to feel that I am here for you. I can be your best friend at all times. I'll be your crying shoulders when everything feels so heavy and too much. I'll hug you when you're feeling down and drowning with your pain. Whatever happens, I can be your clown baby. You're always be blessed. If you feel like everything is falling into pieces, just ask and talk to HIM. For every appointment you have, your angels will be sent from above. God bless you always and forever. I love you with the love of the Lord. All adoration belongs to Him alone.

I miss you -----> real talk.

Hoping that you are here. 

This is ME.....

BOK BOK na akong dughan

Maybe one day, I will finally have the courage to finally tell you I'm over you.

Time will come when I can say I've already moved on. These feelings that I have for you will fade. I won't need to cover up the tear stains left on the sleeves of my shirt. There won't be any need to fake my smiles or my laughters. When I look back and reminisce our times together, maybe I'd finally feel gladness and not pain, gladness for the memories of our friendship, of what we used to have.

I know it won't be easy. It will be painful. It won't be fast. The road to recovery will be long, painful. But time heals. I believe that it does. Time lets you forget.

One day, the love that I feel now will be nothing more than the love for a friend. From where it started and where it should have stayed. It's still a long way ahead. But for now, I'll let my tears fall. I'll let the sadness consume me when I see you and even at the mere thought of you.

Little by little, I have hope that the pain will lessen. The strings that keep on snapping everytime my heart aches will learn to hold themselves together. Piece by piece, I'll try to find the missing piece of my heart again.

That time will come too. And when it does, I won't be sorry for falling for you anymore. I won't regret loving you anymore. I'll wait for that day, that one day when you'll be nothing more than just a friend again.

Good bye for real....