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Feels like I'm knockin on heaven's door

There is no fear in love, but perfect love casts out fear. For fear has to do with punishment, and whoever fears has not been perfected in love. 

1 John 4:18 ESV

I will love you and I love you

You know that I love you, right? Maybe you can't feel it much. But I just want to remind you. I want you to know and I want you to feel my love. I just want to make sure that you do, I hope it's obvious. I want to make sure you're okay. Let's get it on. I'm gonna tell you something. Wag masyadong kiligin. Haha. 

I want to make you happy as much as I want to. 

I'm so proud of you like I've always saying. I'm so proud because you've grown up so fine and gorgeous. I'm so proud of every track you're taking to achieve your dreams. I'm so proud with the things you do, you can do, and will be always proud with the things you will do. . I'm so proud with the achievements you've achieved, the accomplished dreams you've been tasting now. (I just keep silent on it even if I am proud)

I love your humbleness and fighting spirit. I love the genuine passion you have for your profession. So genuine. I hope I won't mess it. I hope I won't mess your outstanding image that you're building right now. Please don't be too sad, as much as I wanted, I want to be there when you're feeling sad. You're not alone, you know that.

You can count on me as usual. I am here though sometimes I am away or not by your side physically, but as much as possible I want you to feel that I am here for you. I can be your best friend at all times. I'll be your crying shoulders when everything feels so heavy and too much. I'll hug you when you're feeling down and drowning with your pain. Whatever happens, I can be your clown baby. You're always be blessed. If you feel like everything is falling into pieces, just ask and talk to HIM. For every appointment you have, your angels will be sent from above. God bless you always and forever. I love you with the love of the Lord. All adoration belongs to Him alone.

I miss you -----> real talk.

Hoping that you are here. 

This is ME.....

BOK BOK na akong dughan

Maybe one day, I will finally have the courage to finally tell you I'm over you.

Time will come when I can say I've already moved on. These feelings that I have for you will fade. I won't need to cover up the tear stains left on the sleeves of my shirt. There won't be any need to fake my smiles or my laughters. When I look back and reminisce our times together, maybe I'd finally feel gladness and not pain, gladness for the memories of our friendship, of what we used to have.

I know it won't be easy. It will be painful. It won't be fast. The road to recovery will be long, painful. But time heals. I believe that it does. Time lets you forget.

One day, the love that I feel now will be nothing more than the love for a friend. From where it started and where it should have stayed. It's still a long way ahead. But for now, I'll let my tears fall. I'll let the sadness consume me when I see you and even at the mere thought of you.

Little by little, I have hope that the pain will lessen. The strings that keep on snapping everytime my heart aches will learn to hold themselves together. Piece by piece, I'll try to find the missing piece of my heart again.

That time will come too. And when it does, I won't be sorry for falling for you anymore. I won't regret loving you anymore. I'll wait for that day, that one day when you'll be nothing more than just a friend again.

Good bye for real....

EMOTIONAL WRETCHEDNESS

It has been a wrecked without you in my arms lately. The horror of this emotional chaos haunts me to the limit of my ability to face each new day. I'm breathing yet not living.There's no sense of purpose as my being unfolds the paradox of my existence without you. May I live for a day, may I face another moment but this only excruciates me to suffer the endless pain of not having you in my side. The shadow of my past horrifies what this future unfolds for living is no longer a desire in this mortal abode. Free but imprisoned in the bondage of this emotional wretchedness. 

  

sad life

hays, mingaw au ko dria..

Mingaw akong life nga wala ka, pero kapoyan man pud ko kung masubra na...

:(..

antus antus ko ani jud...

Part

I NEVER REALLY KNEW YOU, YOU WERE JUST ANOTHER FRIEND BUT WHEN I GOT TO KNOW YOU I LET MY HEART UNBEND I COULDN'T HELP PAST MEMORIES THAT WOULD ONLY MAKE ME CRY I HAD TO FORGET MY FIRST LOVE AND GIVE LOVE ANOTHER TRY SO I FELL IN LOVE WITH YOU AND I'LL NEVER LET YOU GO I LOVE YOU MORE THAN ANYTHING I JUST HAD TO LET YOU KNOW AND IF YOU EVER WONDER WHY I DONT KNOW WHAT I'LL SAY BUT JUST REMEMBER ONE THING “I LOVE YOU”

Dear

I’ll always praise the Lord for giving me the capability to love up to this extent and depth and knowing that you have the same sentiments towards me, I will feel forever blessed. People tend to look for such “great love” all their lives and I am filled with gratitude to have found it in you. There is no reason for me to search anymore because the best person that I could ever love is already in front of me and you will always be more than enough. My eyes speak of overwhelming adoration for you more than my mouth could even utter a single word and my heart is overflowing with love and it is to you alone I can give such. I will forever speak of my beautiful testimony about how our Maker performed miraculous works in us; and may the love we have become an inspiration to other struggling couples to bring their relationships to God because no one is the most secure than the one who surrendered their hearts to Christ. I can proudly say that I walk now with the most meaningful life simply because you were one of the people in my path who made me realize that I have a mighty God who has the best intentions for me and in His words and promises, I lay all my doubts and fears. He made me realize that living simply and making most of His blessings is where you will find contentment and security; that money, fame and success are nothing but mere possessions; that the joy of living is found in taking risks; that you will find the meaning of life in the presence of the people that matters to you most; that the essence of life is to love without hesitation, without conditions and without the fear of the pain it might cause you; and most of all, to share the wonderful truth of His greatness and promised salvation to every person we will meet.

No one can ever understand everything we went through but us that’s why no one has the right to judge us but the Lord who watched over from above who saw how we sacrificed, how we suffered, how destroying the tears of sadness were and how rewarding it is to taste the tears of victory. It was He alone who sees the pureness and innocence of our hearts to the sorrow life brought to us and because of that, He came down from heaven to take hold of our love because he witnessed how real it is, how it sparkles like a diamond, how the sun cannot come up without shining, how there are no trees without its seeds, how there is no fish without water and how incomplete I will be without you, my God-sent match. Slowly, He reached out His healing hands to our bleeding wounds and redeemed us from the darkness of the past. He provided us another opportunity to transform ourselves into a God-driven person that wishes nothing but happiness for the one he loves, to learn to put others before him and to discover the core meaning of real loving. He prepared our hearts to accept what has long gone, to face and overcome our fears that keep on holding us back, to take risks to love again and to create countless beautiful memories together like the sand in the seashore. Today is His gift that is why it is called PRESENT and in it we shall live it the best way.

My dear, we will be struck again with even more heavy attacks of the storm. But fear not, for anyone who holds on firmly in God’s hands has the strongest shield. Let us continuously walk with Him for if we do, He will assure our protection in each battle we will be facing and no enemy so strong can penetrate us. The only fear we can allow is the fear of doing harm to ourselves and to others, the fear of disappointing God and the fear of engaging in wrongdoings. We could fall to the ground to many a time and to curse His name we must not instead we should choose to rejoice in Him and he shall pull us up to greater heights. Our God lives, sees and listens. You have witnessed his greatness in your life, in your family and even in our love. May we continually honor and worship Him together at the church where our love grew even when we will have our own children to raise and up to the time, we will have grandchildren. Gray hairs shall come sprouting one day and the wrinkles will become more evident as each day comes but the love, faith, wisdom and our genuine beauty that matured through the years will still be at its strongest grip with God. We shall still be holding each other’s hands in prayer at age 80 similarly when we were only 20s that I first introduced you to His mighty presence. And this testimony of our eternal love and faith shall be passed on to every generations of our blood and be transferred to the tongues of men so that even after death our names will be remembered because of the great love we shared and the God behind it. May our story become an inspiration to those who lost faith in love so that they can regain courage and seek for the Almighty to renew their spirits and prepare them for the wonderful life that lies ahead.

God bless our on and off relationship.

I love you and always will,

A Sad Love Story (Pangarap Lang kita)

I love you, not because of what you have but because of what I feel.. I care for you, not because you need care but because I want to.. I'm always here for you, not because i wan't you to be with me but because i want to be with you..

 Do what you must; I will never fail to understand you. Girls, do your best in work, enjoy your job, live your life. I shall not demand time nor ask of you to put much effort in me for I choose to love you without expecting anything. Just know that at the end of the day, I am always waiting for you to come home however late the night is and I will not close my eyes not until I am secured that you are safe and someday. I just can’t help falling in love with you all over again and this love will only get deeper. .

Our love is strong as a lion: we feel the heaven. Loving, hugging, kissing. Hoping that this things will not end. Hoping and praying that somehow we will do the same; for future, for present and of course the past.

Why?

I thought our day will not end: I thought our closeness will remain, but these things happen. Why is that your love for me vanishes? And why is that my heart can’t feel anything as my tears fall down?

I begging for your heart. Only your heart: but why can’t you give the thing that I really wanted? Why?. I gave you everything you want, appreciation, blessing, care, love but I can’t understand you, and your act.

          I’m still crying until now.

          Say something I’m giving up you. I swallowed already my pride..

          I’m jealous, I’m weak. I am insane. I am frighten now.

Pagsulay lang

Nganung kinahanglan man jud sulayan ang tao?

Nganung masakitan man jud ta pag masulayan?

Nganung naa may tao nga mu duot nimo pa ubos?

Nganung lisod kaayo depensaan ang kaugalingun?

Nganung kailangan man ikaw ang muiwas? ‘d porket maestro, kailangan ikaw ang mag pakumbaba?

Nganung kailangan man jud kita ang mag sabot sa mga taong wala kasabot?

Ang kinabuhi jud sa mga tao karun kay puro ra biningkilay; dli ba pwedeng mag higugmaay lang? kana ganing walay mga istorya na dapat dli man unta sugnuran.

Sa tanan man mga butang, ang kinabuhi nato kay kapoy kaayu.

You dream big, you dream success and if you are in the top, they will just pull you down, why is that?

Ang manga dili man batohun kung walay bunga;

Is this a sign of production Lord?

I am always praying that God will bless every work of my hands, that’s why God will really bless it. And now, my works produce good works, is that a reason why they drag me down or they are just maybe jealous of me?

Nganung kailangan paman nato masinati ang ka kulba masking limpyo imong kunsensya?

Nganung kailangan paman nato mabati ang ka guol sa mga butang nga dapat d man unta dapat kagul an?

Nganung daghan man kog mga panguta ko maka agi’g pag sulay?

And now oh Lord, I will surrender my life to you as a living sacrifice. Use me Lord, save me from my inequities. Thank you….

I woke up like this... :)

Angel type...

Stand Firm

"It is not a question of God allowing or not allowing things to happen. It is part of living. Some things we do to ourselves, other things we do to each other. Our Father knows about every bird which falls to the ground, but He does not always prevent it from falling. What are we to learn from this? That our response to what happens is more important than what happens. Here is a mystery: one man’s experience drives him to curse God, while another man’s identical experience drives him to bless God. Your response to what happens is more important than what happens."

just doing something

Thank you for the love,
the love that was never there.

Thank you for the memories,

the memories we never shared.

Thank you for the truth,

the truth you never told,

For all the hurt and lies,

were the things that made me whole.

And I really want to thank you

for never loving me at all.

Because you taught me an important lesson,

a lesson above all.

Pala Isipan

1. “Kung hindi mo mahal ang isang tao, wag ka nang magpakita ng motibo para mahalin ka nya..”

2. “Huwag mong bitawan ang bagay na hindi mo kayang makitang hawak ng iba.”

3. “Huwag mong hawakan kung alam mong bibitawan mo lang.”

4. “Huwag na huwag ka hahawak kapag alam mong may hawak ka na.”

5. “Parang elevator lang yan eh, bakit mo pagsisiksikan ung sarili mo kung walang pwesto para sayo. Eh meron naman hagdan, ayaw mo lang pansinin.”

6. “Kung maghihintay ka nang lalandi sayo, walang mangyayari sa buhay mo.. Dapat lumandi ka din.”

7. “Pag may mahal ka at ayaw sayo, hayaan mo. Malay mo sa mga susunod na araw ayaw mo na din sa kanya, naunahan ka lang.”

8. “Hiwalayan na kung di ka na masaya. Walang gamot sa tanga kundi pagkukusa.”

9. “Pag hindi ka mahal ng mahal mo wag ka magreklamo. Kasi may mga tao rin na di mo mahal pero mahal ka.. Kaya quits lang.”

10. “Kung dalawa ang mahal mo, piliin mo yung pangalawa. Kasi hindi ka naman magmamahal ng iba kung mahal mo talaga yung una.”

11. “Hindi porke’t madalas mong ka-chat, kausap sa telepono, kasama sa mga lakad o ka-text ng wantusawa eh may gusto sayo at magkakatuluyan kayo. Meron lang talagang mga taong sadyang friendly, sweet, flirt, malandi, pa-fall o paasa.”

12. “Huwag magmadali sa babae o lalaki. Tatlo, lima, sampung taon, mag-iiba ang pamantayan mo at maiisip mong hindi pala tamang pumili ng kapareha dahil lang maganda o gwapoo. Totoong mas mahalaga ang kalooban ng tao higit sa anuman. Sa paglipas ng panahon, maging ang mga crush ng bayan nagmumukha ding pandesal, maniwala ka.”

13. “Minsan kahit ikaw ang nakaschedule, kailangan mo pa rin maghintay, kasi hindi ikaw ang priority.”

14. “Mahirap pumapel sa buhay ng tao. Lalo na kung hindi ikaw yung bida sa script na pinili nya.”

15. “Alam mo ba kung gaano kalayo ang pagitan ng dalawang tao pag nagtalikuran na sila? Kailangan mong libutin ang buong mundo para lang makaharap ulit ang taong tinalikuran mo.”

16. “Mas mabuting mabigo sa paggawa ng isang bagay kesa magtagumpay sa paggawa ng wala”

17. “Hindi lahat ng kaya mong intindihin ay katotohan, at hindi lahat ng hindi mo kayang intindihin ay kasinungalingan”

18. “Kung nagmahal ka ng taong di dapat at nasaktan ka, wag mong sisihin ang puso mo. Tumitibok lng yan para mag-supply ng dugo sa katawan mo. Ngayon, kung magaling ka sa anatomy at ang sisisihin mo naman ay ang hypothalamus mo na kumokontrol ng emotions mo, mali ka pa rin! Bakit? Utang na loob! Wag mong isisi sa body organs mo ang mga sama ng loob mo sa buhay! Tandaan mo: magiging masaya ka lang kung matututo kang tanggapin na hindi ang puso, utak, atay o bituka mo ang may kasalanan sa lahat ng nangyari sayo, kundi IKAW mismo!”

19. “Ang pag-ibig parang imburnal…nakakatakot mahulog…at kapag nahulog ka, it’s either by accident or talagang tanga ka..”

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